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Sunday, May 27, 2007 @ 7:29 PM

now i know why people blog.
cuz they dont hav any1 2 pour our their
woes 2 or they dont hav any1 2 share
their happiness. i am apparently in
this situation now. that i cant bottle it
to myself anymore.

you know, sometimes water is thicker
than blood?
my birthday only occurs once in a
year; but its so totally ------------
ruined, screwed. whatever it is.
its just a disaster.
now; lets see what my family did
FOR ME.
my father wished me in the morning.
but still, its meaningless. cos
he doesnt even remember.
he just asked me the day before if
its my birthday or my bro's. now.
tell me what's gotten into this world.
and my bro, dont even hav to mention him,
he did nothing. not even wished me.
and well my mum, she smsed me.
ah, see. if that is not pathetic,
what is that?
i know im not that pathetic
cos i still got presents. yeah, but
all the presents i received r all
not on my birthday. that is wad makes
it so pathetic. nothing on my birthday.
nothing special happened. when its
meant to be a special day. im so sad.
people celebrate during their birthday
or at least have fun. but mine is so teary.
yesterday went out with lois. she told me
her little bro, caleb,.kept asking her
the color my my cake. apparently, i have
NO CAKE to tell caleb the color of it.
sorry caleb, i know you love cakes, but.
well, i shall buy u cakes next time kay?
heehs. CALEB IS SOO CUTE. yeah.
look at me. so pathetic.
now let me recite the whole thing that happened
on my birthday after dat morning when my dad
wish me meaninglessly.
the rest of the day was pure disappointing,
my dad went to my bro's parent teacher meeting.
well, WHY DID IT HAVE TO BE ON MY BIRTHDAY?
becuz of it, my whole day is ruined! u all can already
expect what happened. my dad came home so
angry, cos of my bro's bad results n bad comments
from his teacher.my dad's mood was so bad.
for the rest of the day he and my bro kept
quarrelling ok. ON MY BIRTHDAY. and he even
said he's not gonna bring us out for dinner.
im so pissed. yeah. excuse me, i thought dinner
was meant for me? MY BIRTHDAY? and wad!
yea i know i can understand how angry my dad
is with me bro. but; it still my birthday. that occurs
only once in a year. why cant u both juz dont
quarrel for one day n spare me the torture?
what kind of birthday is this. i didnt celebrate it.
didnt get any presents. only wishes from smses.
the morning was just like any other day. the afternoon
when my dad came back was hell with dad n bro
quarreling. then for lunch my dad scolded me so
unreasonably. cos it was lunchtime n no one
seemed to be bothered about it. so i had to settle
it myself. n my dad asked me to buy lunch for
my bro i refused n i got scolded. he said we dont
even behave like brother n sister. hey, its my birthday,
i have to settle my own lunch n i still have to buy for
my bro who never even bothered about me n
can go buy himself! im sosososo sad n angry ok.
my dad just shouted at me for that stupid thing.
then after lunch 3 plus went tuition till 6 plus dad
picked up went for dinner. ah at least still get to
go out for dinner. but its so sad luh. before my
mum went to sydney, she told me dad to
take me out for dinner n i could choose anywhere
i wanted to go. i chose the restaurant i went before
a long time ago. it was a super ex. but nice jap
restaurant. and you know wad? my dad did not
agree. he says its too ex. come on, its jus for
1 occasion! my birthday! only once in a year!
i really felt like crying at that moment, my parents
were NEVER so stingy or restricting on food.
whats more, its my birthday! i remember that time
when i first n last went to dat expensive restaurant,
it wasnt even for any special occasion. and now.
what is this???!! ok. nevermind about that.
even though my dad didnt want to bring me to
dat restaurant, he said he would bring me to
another ex. jap restaurant dat ia almost as
good but cheaper. so of cos i said fine. at least
still get to go to a nice place.
but in the end?? when he quarrelled with my
bro he said we were not goin anymore.
and afterdat he still saked me if i still wanted to
go. in my heart, yes i so wanted to. but im terribly
sad to know that he just brought me there for
the sake of my request. and not becos he
wanted to just for my birthday.
anw, in the end, we didnt go to any ex. restaurant.
although sake sushi is still considered ex. but it
isnt where we planned to go. n the only reason
sad to know is that he brought me to novena
square, square2 to eat sake sushi there is
just becuz he had vouchers n wanted to use!!!!!!!!!
CAN ANYONE UNDERSTAND HOW I AM
FEELING

yeah so tell me if u agree my birthday was pathetic,
or im just making a big fuss out of it.
NUMBER 1, its my birthday. AND I STILL HAVE
TUITION.
NUMBER 2, I DIDNT GET ANYTHING.[ ok although
i did get presents[from friens only but not family.*sigh*]
but why all on other days but not on
my birthday? it doesnt my my birthday dat special anymore]
NUMBER 3, MY DAD SCOLDED ME.
NUMBER 4, HE BROUGHT ME FOR
DINNER UNWILLINGLY.
NUMBER 5, MY MUM IS OVERSEAS. ok although its not her
fault cos i said i didnt mind but i actually do. but its for her
job, so wad can be done?

what a nice birthday...............
you know what?! next year IM NOT GONNA STAY
HOME FOR MY BIRTHDAY.
last year was as pathetic. except that nothing unhappy
happened like my dad n bro kept quarreling.
even in novena square, went we went past the cakes
shope angelz cup, i saw the muffins n i really wanted to
do wad amanda told me. buy a muffin n stick a candle
there n wish myself a happy birthday.
after experiencing 2 times of a disappointing birthday,
last yr n this yr, i dunno what to expect next yr. i guess
after this i'll never be looking forward to my birthday
anymore. i'll just take it that i dont have a birthday.
afterall, now dat i realised 26 is an unlucky no.
even the newspapers say so. an article on the news
says that most natural disasters like volcanoes
typhoons or wadever occur on 26. look, even the
tsunami, 26 dec. [thats my fren's bdae too though]
yeah so the dissaster on this yr's 26 may is that
my dad n bro kept quarrleing.
even yestrday when my mum returned, the
war between son n parents resumed.
they quarrelled the whole night, lasted even
after 1am plus. and no one spared a thuoght
that i wanted to sleep. of cos, i couldnt sleep
at all. i am so sad, okay? i practically
had a shitty week. when its my birthday week.
even not the weekends, the LJ week in
school, not everything turned out well.

my mum gave me a red packet for my bdae.
$50. i know i should be happy. its alot of
money, but dats not what i want.
presents r still more meaningful. cos
the person will take the time to think
what u like n what u would want. it
also shows sincerity.
but what else can i expect? even when
i told my mum how pathetic my birthday
was when she was away, she didnt even
understand or feel for me.
wad a birthday week.

and so she says she's gonna bring me out
today. soon after this blog n when she
returns from my grandma's.
yeah, but i wanna say to this her[though
i cant] although u may think doin this
can redeem for wad has happened,
but u cant. cos a birthday is only 1 day.
and when its over, its over.
tell me, what a sad birthday,

i juz felt like this this week; especially on my birthday

i have a family,.but i feel like i dont,

i have friends, but they cant be there.

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