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Monday, November 06, 2006 @ 4:28 AM
i know u didnt like me inthe very beginning. in factu hated me. u said a lot ofbad things behind my back. u thought i didnt know. butwell i knew. but maybe i cansay its not ur fault cuz u mightthink that i had an ulterior motivethats the only reason i can thinkof to why u would hate me somuch. the things u said 'boutme; i dont know what made usaid so. all the hurtful words.in any other case i didnt seewhat was wrong with myself.i couldnt find all the bad things usaid about me in myself. or was it my fault cos i often expressmyself n my intentions wrongly.seriously i do not know. but theni thought u accepted me astime went by. however it didntseem so. cos i knew what usaid behind my back today. tosomeone else. n that person wassomeone i trusted a lot too.maybe its meant to be this waymaybe u still couldnt accept me.but its fine. cos i think i will finda true friend one day. cos i realisethat i have none as they were all close to u too. n if they agreebout the way u think about me.then they are not true friends anymore. i feel like im living ina world of lies, illusions...or living with hypocrites withouteven knowing till today...but nevermind. at least i know nowits better late than never. anyway i wont bear a grudgeagainst u or hate u. cuz there'sno point to it. hatred wont do anybody good. afterall i think time will tell...time will tell u that u havemistaken me...im not the way u think i am..nobody's made perfect. we allhave our bad points...n i think whatever we do wejuz have to make sure thatwhat we r doing is right nwe dont need to care somuch what other people think.we're not made to pleaseeveryone. but if somehow i have doneu wrong or offended u, imsorry.
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